Behaviors

by passion fanfare

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released August 20, 2009

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Track Name: Born From You
I almost asked you why you sleep with men
You don't really like them, they just make you feel calm
Can't you see how that's wrong

I want to stage an intervention but you live so far away
There's really nothing I could tell you that would make this okay
It's not okay

You always are saying you'd like to be a housewife
You want to live a life that's seen on TV
Like you're telling me

I'll try to put it in words you can understand
We could watch television, we could hold hands
I'll try to put it in words that are true for me
After you orgasm we could read fashion magazines

Is this my cold too, is this my sickness too?
Of course we only want girls who are born from you
Track Name: Left On
You sold me out
As if you didn't know what it was it about
You always knew that stuff better than I did
Well, you know me

When it got to be too much
I couldn't read, I couldn't be touched
And I tried to go to sleep in the basement of the school

I was so smart
These weak lungs and a gibbering heart
And you saw that stuff better than I did
You know me

I guess that was hard on you and I should feel bad
But I know I'm the worst case scenario

When it got to be too much
I couldn't read, I couldn't be touched
And I tried to go to sleep in the basement of the school

It was nice till I woke up
So please forgive me if I don't give a fuck
About the dangers of denial, the trial, the test

Believe me, I've been there
I got older, I grew out my hair
But you've never been where you put me when you left me on

You sold me out
You thought I wouldn't know what it was about
But I know that stuff better than you think
I know you

It was great till I woke up
So please forgive me if I don't give a fuck
About the dangers of denial, the trial, the test

It was great till I woke up
And ever since then I've been frozen up
But I know
Track Name: Synthesize the Mind
My computer has a picture of an apple that a guy was eating when he died
And my friend has had pictures of that man tacked up on her walls for half her life
The government, they pumped him full of drugs
They did not know shit about what he could do
He could synthesize the mind, he could make me and you

Right now I work with kids, kids who are always crying, you're not supposed to look at them
I guess the idea is that although it won't stop hurting they might learn to sit still and pretend
It really freaks me out 'cause I am just the same
Except I'm way too old for you to tell me what to do
You can't synthesize my mind, I am gone from you

Oh why did I buy a computer, I could have used my money to help my friend
I could be making planets, I could be making novels, I am making my own end
I think I know you, I think you I know all about you, but every day your mind is such a shock
If I study, if I read the studies I'll figure out how to unlock you

My friend grew up crushing on dead scientists, you can guess she's pretty fucking cool
But she wasn't normal so she grew up in a war zone, it enveloped her after school
And because of that nothing can ever be worse
I guess I don't know shit about what she can do
You can't synthesize her mind, she is gone from you

And I wouldn't have it any other way, you're such a shock
I wouldn't have it any other way, you're such a joy
I wouldn't have it any other way, I can't synthesize your mind, they wrote it down
Track Name: Sun
You were born broken
Dangling yourself toward the sun
All the things that you leave undone
All the depths that I leave unplumbed
You are my friend
But I don't know who you are anymore

You were born squeaking
Like the rat that they left in a cage by the door
You were born leaking
But nobody knows what for

And my uncle has sent me another check
Soon when I get lonely it'll be what I expect
And it won't come

You were born dying
Like the cave where I found your mom before
You were born crying
And nobody knows what for
You are my friend
You are my end
And nobody knows what for
Track Name: Trial and Error
Your heavy heart
Can I come inside?

I know I'm a trial and error
Don't see how it could get much harder
My neurotheology fucks me sideways

So can I come inside?

My father says I changed and went away
Am I getting stronger, am I moving forward
Oh moving forward you hurt more anyway

So I can go inside?
My heavy heart
Your heavy heart is my heavy heart
I can go inside, and will you take me in?
Will you take me in?
Well I can go inside

I know I'm a trial and error
Can't see how it could get much harder
My father says I changed and went away
Am I getting better, faster, stronger every day
Track Name: For Road
You are my once and future heart
In the darkness tearing me apart
I can see the years in front of you
They're like bullets hurtling toward you

Oh the math the charm of your birthday
Video and lights take you away
Video, videam, yes I can
Because victi sumus eternam

You're so smart
And I know what you are facing with your
Red brick heart
The eminent erasing
'Cause when your heart is red, you're so dead

You are my once and future heart
In the darkness tearing me apart
I can see your years like they're my own
You will always win, end up alone

Okay, so don't win
Game the system

You're so brave
Because you don't know you've got to
Be afraid
Thank God
Because when your heart is sick, it is mercifully quick
But when your heart is dead, well you're so red!
You're so dead
Track Name: Ten and Two
I started bleeding at the same time as you
I started bleeding with my hands at ten and two
We were running away

We went to the rest stop to buy a lot of pads
The guy working at the rest stop asked us if we were sad
And I am not, are you?

There isn't much for girls in New York City
Except sometimes under scaffolding some guy says that you're pretty
I never am, are you?

There isn't much for girls in Pennsylvania
Don't explore ghostly tunnels, never talk to strangers
But I've got to

There isn't much for girls in New York City
Except you on the subway are exhaustingly pretty
And I love you

I started bleeding at the same time as you
I started bleeding with my hands at ten and two
When I started bleeding I was still a kid
And I just realized it's not because of what I did
Or wanted to do